How good is God's grace? I have seen Him work in so many ways these last few days, months even. He has completely brought me to the end of myself. Which is awesome.  I feel so free, I've acknowledge my mistakes, apologize to a plethera of people, and start the changing. While I realize that this road will be a long one, one that never ends actually, I won't be alone. I have for 20 years put off trying my best in order to do what I want, well, I'm tired of what I want, I only get pain, lonelyness, and discontentment...yep, all done. The things of God are so much better, so much more perfect. I had to call and apologize to my parents last night, and guess what I feel so much beter, more free. The only thing to do keep this is to just do my best in all I do, not always going to be fun, but always be rewarding. I have found my best friend in Jesus, he has always been my friend but never my best friend. I feel so good. i know that this won't always last, but to know that I have a family, to have friends, to have a God that will never leave me is an incredibly comforting feeling. Anyways, will  you please comment, it's kind of disheartening to never have anyone comment. Well, this is also the last of these weird post, so maybe that will encourage some comments...??